You are a Nithya Mukta – eternally free
Whatever you may be searching for, whether it is relationships, wealth or titles, it is only the search for more freedom.

our entire struggle in life is nothing but the struggle for freedom. Even your search for money is the search for freedom. If you have more money, you have more choices or more freedom to choose a bigger house, a bigger car, m o r e comforts etc. Your search for more choice is your search for freedom. Whatever you may be searching for, whether it is relationships, wealth or titles, it is only the search for more freedom.
The first thing a rule does is to put you in fear of violating it at any time. Even if you don’t break the rule, you are left with a feeling of fear and guilt about it.
By your very nature you are a nithya mukta – eternally free person. You never want to be curtailed. You never want to be a slave of any rule. In order to be that way, you just need to bring in more awareness and follow the rules with the right understanding.